all the leaves are brown …
By jude • Nov 7th, 2007 • Category: Daily Shots
… and my brain is gray.
Okay, maybe it’s supposed to be grey, but you know what I mean. I hate winter. I feel like crawling into bed and sleeping for the 5 months it stays in this area. I have to drive a lot in my job so the driving in snow is stressful as hell. Not to mention snow is COLD! I hate being cold.
So here I sit at 5:49 a.m. bemoaning the fact that the season is starting. All the leaves are down (and brown) and the snow is starting to fall. The only thing I look forward to is more photos of snow falling for my “Life in a Snowglobe” gallery.
I’m just venting so you can move on if the negativity is driving you nuts. More is coming.
I hate my job now. I found out too late that the newspaper photographers only last an average of 2 years there because they work them day and night and don’t care if they burn out. I’ve been there 2 1/2 years now and am at the burn-out stage. I feel unappreciated, overworked, and most of all stressed because I have very little – if any – time to do what I love. And no, the money isn’t a comfort as they won’t pay overtime for the hours I work. I can only get time off.
If I can find the time to take off.
I’m struggling to shake off the negative feelings but it’s is just that – a struggle. I need a boost… something wonderful to happen to me.
I’ll take “something nice” if “wonderful” is busy ;)
I’m renting the 24-70mm f2.8 lens for a few weeks to see if I like it. So far I haven’t had much of a chance to try it out besides work photos. I did like the sharpness on these leaves, though. Next week I do a photo shoot with a very pretty woman so I think this lens will come in handy.
Okay… time to go to work. I’m done whining now.
kinda…
jude
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I think I could take a full winter in exchange of your “Snowtrain” OR your “Winter Wind”, OR … any other in the snowglobe gallery. I won’t say a word about a jobs that sucks. No, no, no. I won’t. And c’mon. If your job was not gray, maybe you would do “bright” images. See, that could be worse ;-)
Living in Montreal I’m a bit in the same boat with you Jude. Not so grey here, but cold as hell. The bright side is the winter brings with it many unique photo opportunities and you certainly know how to take advantage of that! Hang in there, drink lots of great coffee, and curl up with a good book in front of the fire. :-)
Jude,
I really feel for you. If it’s not the daily grind, the grisly weather mocks you. It’s also difficult to get out of such moods.
I’m an Englishman and living in Thailand the sun manages to put a smile on my face on most days. There is a certain romance in the seasons changing; new shoots in spring, fiery Autumn and crisp winter cool and all of that but I’ll be damned if I can honestly say I miss the grey grey days stretching out for ten months of the year. Umm this probably isnt helping is it?!!!
I can also relate to the photography job side of things and can honestly say since I started taking pictures for money, very little personal stuff has happened. I’ve sold my soul. I’m hoping this is just a phase and my drive will return but at the moment it’s just work work work.
You still seem very productive with your personal work though and maintain an incredibly high standard. Maybe if you had everything your own way you’d just be too damn happy!!
The 24-70 2.8 on the other hand is pure joy and rarely comes of me camera.
Love your melancholy leaf still life by the way.
I’m off to get a cool drink out the fridge.
Hello Jude. If you’re young and single, you can always, just, walk out, if the job really sucks. I did. They countered with a promise of a promotion. I told them that if they really wanted to, they would’ve done so in an earlier cycle. But that was 11 years ago. Now, with a little girl and a couple of other responsibilities, I have learned to “play ball”.
Now… imagine if you didn’t have photography.
Life would really suck ;)